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It seems so essential to put down one’s roots,
and by doing so, acquire a sense of permanence and solidity, a feeling
of belonging in a reality that, on the other hand, is so elusive
that it always escapes us. But our existence comes to an end.
Then, as the French writer Andre Marlaux has put it, ‘Death transforms
life into destiny.’ Those who survive try to recall all the ‘whens’
and ‘wheres’ of the deceased, as if this poor recollection of the
landmarks of a life could again give some consistency to what once
was and is no more.
Writing today about Aroon’s life, retracing his past, is an endeavour
to look for him in all these places where he once stayed, and somehow,
try to recreate his living presence.
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When and where
In 1991, Aroon took his retirement,
while Annette taught at the University of Tours (France). But the
home base during all those years had been Gerstheim, a small village,
25 kilometres south of Strasbourg, where a house had been built
in 1983, a house which was always the meeting point of friends and
family members, whenever the Tamulys had a chance to rest a while
between their long journeys around the globe. It was also in this
same home, in Gerstheim, that Aroon fell sick in 1993 and after
five years of ill health, looked after by his wife who had taken
early retirement, finally died on 7 October 1998. His ashes were
brought back to India to be immersed in the Ganges in Haridwar and
the Brahmaputra, in Guwahati, in 1999.
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winds like a river….
Having thus recounted Aroon’s whereabouts, I have indeed transformed
his life into destiny. But, by doing so, I have sketched a
lifeless map of facts and places to convey nothing of Aroon’s
love for life, his energy, his openness, his curiosity towards
places and people, his perpetual search for knowledge and
understanding. How could those dry and petrified, render the
way he was attuned to the places where he stayed, how they
transformed and enriched his own personality and shaped his
existence? His intelligence and warmth, his acute sense
of observation and humour allowed him to shape people’s feelings
and interests and, at the same time transcend them by taking
distances and making allowances.
It is said all civilizations develop on the bank of rivers.
In a similar way, I think that what we are is not only shaped
by our roots in certain places, but is moulded by the rivers
that we come across. Does not life itself wind along like
a river? Think of the fresh spring of childhood when
nothing seems to exist but joy, game and laughter! Then comes
the impetuous stream of youth, with its passions, love and
ambitions. Life goes on with its twists and turns. There are
times when one feels the mighty and invigorating flow of happiness
and success, times when we seem to easily control the flux
and tame it according to our will. There are periods when
the course of things seems slow and tedious, times also of
desperate flooding when we are helplessly carried along by
forces beyond our control. Once, some 3 years back walking
along the Rhine, Aroon and myself started reflecting- as we
often did- about the passing of life. We quoted a verse by
the Greek philosopher Heraclitus: ‘Panta rei’ ‘everything
flows’ and ‘ you can never take twice a bath in a river because
the water that flows in it, is never the same.’ Little did
we realize that Aroon was soon to join the ultimate flow of
life and death, and that his earthly remains would be scattered
partly in the Ganges, and the Brahmaputra partly in the Rhine,
to join the great oceans.
Beyond all what water symbolizes, beyond all the philosophical
thoughts that it may inspire, I must say that Aroon had a
fascination for rivers. During the last months of his life,
although he was extremely weak, withdrawn and mostly silent,
he still liked to speak about all the rivers he had seen and
of which he kept a vivid memory. He told me about the Dhansiri
river and the bend it makes in Golaghat. It was on the Dhansiri
river that Aroon, a small awe-stricken child, in the dim light
of dusk experienced his first religious feelings when he witnessed
the ceremonies of immersion of Mother Durga and Goddess Kali
in the river. He remembered how, as a young schoolboy, he
used to go with his friends to the then newly-built bridge
slightly outside Golaghat. It was so exciting to cross it
and wonder at people enjoying the cool riverbank, doing their
laundry or taking a ritual bath. It was all there, right
on the river: the source of life and also the mysterious sign
that there was something beyond and above. Aroon’s thoughts
bought him back also to the Kolong river which separates Nagaon
and Haiborgaon (Assam) where his father was born. Kolong was
not yet polluted at that time and with his friends, he used
to take bath in the river, carefully avoiding the deep and
the dangerous middle of the bed. Later, he said, he felt so
sorry to see the river invaded by ‘meteka’, the aquatic plants
that slowly choked the flowing water. So the river of his
youth was already awakening Aroon’s inquisitive mind to the
problem of water pollution that was later in his life as an
oceanographer and limnologist, to become his main center of
interest.
But with the mixed feelings of young age, water appeared both
as a source of fun and good time and as a danger. When crossing
the bridge by train in upper Assam, the tumultuous flow of
the Dihang river always filled Aroon with fear, as if some
life threatening force was lurking in its water. But Aroon
was no coward and, always the explorer, he nearly drowned
once in a pond in a remote place where his father stayed as
a forest officer. Thinking back about all the anecdotes that
he recalled, I realize how strange and how strong were Aroon’s
bonds with rivers and waters. As a young man, crossing a bridge
over the Kakajan, between Jorhat and Golaghat in a jeep, he
was suddenly ejected from the vehicle driven by his friend
and fell right on a rock in the middle of the river. He was
miraculously saved and could crawl out of the water, although
he remained unconscious for quite a while. Was there really
some evil and destructive force that bought him several times
near death? In his horoscope, the danger coming from water
was clearly mentioned… Much later, in 1968, while on a scientific
cruise on the USN Eltanine, sailing towards Antarctica, Aroon
was again about to loose his life. In the bitter cold of the
Antarctic night he had to go out to take some scientific measurements.
He slipped on the icy upper-deck and fell but could only at
the last minute hold on the rail. Who would have noticed,
in the middle of the night, that a man had fallen overboard
in a water so cold that it would have killed him anyway within
minutes?
Brahmaputra, Ganges, Rhine, Orinoco St Lawrence, Mississippi,
‘The Ole Man River’, Rio Grande, to name but a few, formed
like a garland around which Aroon’s life winded. They taught
him the power and beauty of nature: its gentleness and its
violence, the impermanence of things and the necessity for
each of us to not to grasp at things but rather to let them
go.
Rivers had also the magical power of opening the sluice of
Aroon’s poetic talent. Among all the poems he wrote, many
of them were dedicated to rivers. The following verses were
written in Tucupita, a small town in Venezuela, in March 1973.
They seem somehow to sum up Aroon’s rich and wonderful life
journey ‘to nowhere and yet to everywhere’
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